Friday, October 14, 2011

Waiting, waiting, waiting........

About this time 6 years ago, I was laying in a hospital bed patiently 
waiting, waiting, waiting.......
Bed rest for a high risk pregnancy does not help you develop patience.
You have a lot of time on your hands.
A lot of time to worry...
A lot of time to stress.....
A lot of time to dwell on nightmares from the past.....
All the things that the bed rest, in the hospital, were supposed to help aleviate.
HAH!!!  I say. 
The doctors didn't know me as well as they thought they did!!

What is one of my biggest fears in life???
More precisely, needles sticking into me.
Yet, every Monday for 3 weeks I endured a amnio.
They are not for the faint hearted.
I am most definetely not the poster child for this procedure.
But, for my children, I would do anything....
are you reading children?????

I have read in the scriptures about people praying continuously for nights and days.
I often could they do that??

Every day the nurses would come in to monitor Samuel's heart beat.
Every day I would hold my breath and wait.
Nearly every day they couldn't find it.
Nearly every day I would go down to have an ultra sound.
There I would hear that reasurring thump, thump, thump.
Then, then I could breath again.

I now know and understand how someone can pray continuously.....unceasingly.

I would do anything for this little boy.
At times I still feel that I am praying for him continuously......unceasingly.